I wish I could write that things are "looking up" but they aren't, really. I'm pretty overwhelmed.

My pre-cancer diagnosis has now turned into a "will-get-cancer-any-minute"diagnosis. I'm beyond bummed, obviously! I just wish I would have never let myself get to this point. For today, I'm going whine, bitch, and moan. After today, I'm only looking forward. I might whine a bit later on. Sorry.

Today my daughter made her First Holy Communion. I'm not super-duper religious and haven't even been considered a Catholic for many years. But, she goes to a Catholic school and learns a lot of yummy religious jargon and stuff, so she wanted to do the Communion.

She looked beautiful. A beautiful princess. I have so much to lose weight for, and seeing her today reminded me of that. It may be cancer, it may be weight, it may be walking across the street that kills me, but today I'm making the decision to say that at least, it won't be from being overweight.