My life is in such disarray. I'm trying to get my mojo and just go with the flow. It' s so hard when life just busts you and goes in the total opposite direction!

I've got an appointment with an oncologist on June 10th. I hope he does my hysterectomy ASAP. I'm in a whole lot of pain and am still having those sorts of issues. I worry that my weight will be a hindrance in my surgery. I worry about that incessantly. But, I am also at a point where the anemia is taking a toll and I just need to get better.

Weight loss is at a stall, again. This could be due to the bloating, due to the fact that I'm just trying to do the Medifast as successfully as possible. I need to go on with this and I hope to lose some decent weight by the 10th. At least I'll be a bit lighter for the appointment. I'm nervous!

Keep On Keeping On

Well, my boot camp mentality quickly became my Just-Try-To-Survive mentality! I am feeling very slow and tired because of the anemia. I only made it to Curves twice this week. I have stopped walking because I can't catch my breath. (Thanks, anemia!)

I also had my doctor here in Tucson tell me I needed my hysterectomy RIGHT NOW. So, I have an appointment with an oncologist on Tuesday which is completely futile because I have every intention on moving in 16 days and I can't be recovering from a hysterectomy with no home, right?

I will wait and have my surgery in Houston, where I can actually relax and just recover in my new, own home.

My weight loss is going okay. I'm down a total of 62 pounds down since December, 2009. Not too shabby. I know I could have probably lost more but these issues do make it difficult. The Medifast has been such a blessing. I'm worried because I don't have my next month's shipment due to the move and I am worried because it's so hard to stay on plan while traveling. But, I plan to do my absolute best and just to keep in mind I can take meals with me and try to be pro-active in that.

I need to keep on keeping on, and I will. I'm worried what my surgery will do and how it will affect my weight loss but I need to know it will improve the quality of my life tremendously!

I moved past my stall. I've officially lost 55 pounds! I've got a great boot camp mentality for May. I am being very stringent with my routine, my food intake, water intake, and exercise. More than anything, I want to lose some weight for a wedding on Memorial Day weekend. I CAN do it!

These past two weeks have been rough. I had a cold, so only went to Curves twice in two weeks. I am so incredibly tired and can't explain why. I had an incident at my daughter's school where kids actually physically pulled other kids aside so they could all gawk at me. Not my finest moment, that's for sure. It set me off into a depression, but I also got some form of gumption and decided to use that negative energy for something positive. Hence, the boot camp for May. It's self-inflicted, and is working! ;-)

My life feels at a stand-still right now. May have cancer. Definitely need a hysterectomy this summer. Definitely moving in 27 days. Definitely have an annoying teenager. Definitely am tired of being a single mom for a lot of the time. Definitely wishing I had more energy. Definitely working on the weight loss.

Lots of definites in my life. Not all good, but not all necessarily bad. I need for life to continue, I'm just tired of being at a standstill.