Tough Day

Sometimes, I sit and wonder why this time will be any different? Why will I lose weight this time as opposed to the millions of other times I tried and failed?

I had a rough day. I continue to have a rough time with wanting to gorge myself out on anything and everything I can get my hands on. I'm trying desperately to identify the reason I am so obsessed with food. I can't put my finger on it and it's really very annoying and so frustrating.

I feel like if I had the answer, I could continue on this journey with the mental portion of the puzzle solved. But, that hasn't happened. I'm so frustrated.

I keep on keeping on. I went to the gym today, ate decently, and did some outdoor things to challenge myself. But, the desire to overeat is horrible.

Wish this piece of my puzzle could be put in place and let go. I just can't figure out why it's happening and I feel like if I solved that mystery, I'd be so ahead of the game. All in due time, I suppose.